Well, it was an emotion filled weekend! I managed to talk with my Dad, brother, cousin (who is also one of my best friends), and my other best friend. What it made me realise is that I really do have an amazing network of people around me - what a fantastic feeling!
We saw my partners family, but for some reason I just couldn't get the words out. I have asked him to just call them today.
I am starting to get scared about things....things that may not even happen, but non-the-less they are playing on my mind. Things like losing my hair, losing my eyelashes and eyebrows, not having the energy to exercise (which I do daily at the moment). We have a new CEO commencing soon when I will be off with all of this....worried about my job, having to re-prove myself when I'm not at 100%.
So it's two-weeks today till my mastectomy, and it can not come soon enough. I want it done. I want to find out the next phase. I want to know more so I can stop a million questions floating about in my head. I feel ill most of the time at the moment just with worry!
Thank god for my beautiful partner and gorgeous puppy. xxx