Well, it was an emotion filled weekend! I managed to talk with my Dad, brother, cousin (who is also one of my best friends), and my other best friend. What it made me realise is that I really do have an amazing network of people around me - what a fantastic feeling!
We saw my partners family, but for some reason I just couldn't get the words out. I have asked him to just call them today.
I am starting to get scared about things....things that may not even happen, but non-the-less they are playing on my mind. Things like losing my hair, losing my eyelashes and eyebrows, not having the energy to exercise (which I do daily at the moment). We have a new CEO commencing soon when I will be off with all of this....worried about my job, having to re-prove myself when I'm not at 100%.
So it's two-weeks today till my mastectomy, and it can not come soon enough. I want it done. I want to find out the next phase. I want to know more so I can stop a million questions floating about in my head. I feel ill most of the time at the moment just with worry!
Thank god for my beautiful partner and gorgeous puppy. xxx
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Hi, well that part is done at least, I know it is really hard to shut off you brain, but there really is nothing more you can do until you have the op now and get your final pathology results, so enjoy some excercise, have a movie night, go out to a resturant that you like or spend time with the people you like and just for a few moments here and there you may forget and be just you for those precious free moments, I am hoping you at least get a few special moments between now and then, thinking of you
Cheers Narelle
Hi Annie
O dear,that brain of yours needs to slow down -you are getting way ahead of yourself.I know it's hard not to think the worst.At this stage distraction is the best strategy such as all Narelle's ideas.Go shopping - have you got button down the front pjs? maybe some stretchy singlets,loose tops/shirts cos you can't wear a bra for a little while.I used open waistcoats and scarves for camourflage.You may not need chemo -I didn't with the first bc. Your new ceo might be a darling. I feel for you cos the waiting is cruel and no amount of worry will change your pathology results.Be patient - thinking of you.
Tonya xx