So last night I had to make the call to tell my nan about what is going on. She just couldn't handle it and was unbelievably upset. I couldn't even get to telling her details or explaining the situation. She just heard 'cancer' and that was it!
I had to reassure her that I'm a tough cookie and that everything would be ok, but she obviously just thought the worst. I know people are going to find it hard, but that sort of reaction definitely doesn't make things any easier!
Tomorrow is my trip home to see my family and best friends...usually I am so looking forward to a visit home, but this time I am dreading it. I feel sick to the stomach just thinking about it.
But, I do have a fantastic family and fantastic friends so I know they will be supportive.
I also spoke to work yesterday about what was coming up and they were absolutely FANTASTIC about it. My boss pretty much said you just do whatever you need to do, no questions asked. My colleagues, who are also my friends, offered any sort of help should I need it. That part is a weight off my shoulders that's for sure.
On the positive, my amazing partner has organised a three week 'care schedule' for me after my operation - god bless him! He will look after me for the first week, his mum for the second week, and my nan if we need for the third week. I know this can't be easy for him either, but he is just being so amazing with it all.
TGIF....am cracking open a bottle of red tonight!