If I blink you could excuse me for thinking that I have just woken up from a quick cat nap. Instead it's been 10 days since I was diagnosed with a multi-focal ductal cancer in my left breast. In this time I have had a mastectomy of the left breast as well as the removal of all my lymph nodes on the left hand side.
While in hospital my bone scans have indicated that the breast cancer has metastasised onto my bones in a number of locations. On a positive note my pathology results show good margins and only 1 of 22 lymph nodes came back positive with cancer - no radiation treatment required.
Today is 1 week since my surgery and I have celebrated this with my first appointment with my Oncologist with chemo starting in 2 weeks.
These are the facts which I have processed and tried to put into some logical milestones working towards the day I can say I'm in remission. For me this was the only objective from day 1 and at day 10 I am even more determined in hitting that R word!
In the meantime I'm learning to be kind to myself and listening to my body as I go through this recovery period. In only these few days I have experienced the good and bad of what the mind is capable of doing and the impact it can have on the type of day you are having. I may not have control over the cancer at the moment (chemo will assist with that) but I do have control over what I think and feel - that is where I need my strength.
I have always been a natural smiler and as I embark on this journey it will be my smile that I will make sure I don't forget to pack.
Already by sharing my thoughts have helped me find my smile and help ease some of the post operative discomfort I'm experiencing tonight. Tomorrow is a new day with new hopes and opportunities.