So I am lying in bed trying to cry myself to sleep once more, I am undecided about contacting ayone one about the slow leak in expander, as am to go back to work tomorrow and my oldest daughter goes to Malaysia on Saturday and I cant miss saying goodbye to her, when the youngest one only 13 years old comes in gives me a hug and says
"Everyone wants happiness
No one wants pain
But you cant have a rainbow
Without a little rain"
Well it might of been the shortest day of the year but for me I am afraid it has been one of the longest and still going, at now I think it is 2.00 am, had a follow up appt with surgeon whom I had not seen since operation, and I have never been so de humanized and demoralized in my life, I do not have clear margins and she doesnt ge it that I can not live with that, I should just trust her well, arent they famous last words, she also tried to put more fluid in one expander even though I have repeately said I dont wont to go any bigger, and couldnt find with magnet, so just said pot lu