Well, 2nd chemo was two weeks ago, and I got through it, I was more prepared this time! Just still pretty tired, but that's what early nights are for I guess (when I can sleep, that is!) :-)
I may have mentioned that I'm not a huge fan of needles, well.... after a fair few attempts trying to access my port with a 1/2 inch needle, we figured that my port is deeper than most, and ended up going with a 1.5 inch needle - information I really didn't need to know (owie) but, yep, I survived!!!
I'm due for number 3 on 5 December, and number 4 on 27 December - which will leave me with 4 more rounds to go (then radiation and Herceptin). I just can't wait to finish this initial stuff.
I am an official baldie now, and rock out in a cute little wig at work. A young girl who serves me at a local cafe near the office said that she 'just loves' my new hair-do... had a bit of a giggle about that.... but it was really nice to hear! It's funny, I kind of felt like I was being dishonest - but what do you say to a virtual stranger? "It's not actually my hair, its a wig, I have cancer"?? Does anyone have any simillar stories?
This week I have just felt 'blah'. I guess its from the chemo and being tired. I've decided not to give myself a hard time about feeling this way though. I guess it's just a part of the process. I work with people who have suffered catastrophic injury, and some of my colleagues are disabled. One in particular is a young fellow, he's just tops.
Anyway, we had a candid chat today and he told me he was feeling a bit 'over it' and not 'really in to work today'. I told him that I was feeling a bit tired and blah too - he said that I'm one of the only people who could understand how he feels when he's a bit down, he said 'you just get it Max'. So I told him that I am giving myself a little allowance of 'blah' time every now and then, and he should too.
We're always having to be strong, face the future and all it holds head on, and keep living life everyday... but sometimes, just sometimes, I feel blah. And that's OK.
Anyway, that's just about enough about my 'blah'...
Hope everyone else is travelling well. Santa will be on his merry way soon, my 3y/o son is really excited - he came into our room this morning wearing reindeer ears and a blinking Rudoph nose, trying to sing a carol - OMG it was so cute.
Take care all,