That's how I'm feeling at the moment! Day 11 of Chemo 5 and I'm still not feeling great. I should be feeling okay, because I only have 1 more chemo to go, (23rd Feb) but my mouth is still awful.
I am meeting my radiation oncologist on Wednesday, everyone tells me it's easy compared to chemo so i'm happy about that.
I went to the Ronan concert day 4 of Chemo, but had to have high dose of endone that I don't really remember much of it. My sister tells me he was great!
I can't remember what I use to be like before BC, working, gym, friends, kids. Now this thing consumes my life, I can't do that it's day 4 I'll be sick, Won't go out day 10 might catch something. I find when I do go somewhere I don't make eye contact with anyone, it's easier than seeing people stare at me. The support network is slowly dwindling. Friends want to hear the up me. Yeah i'm doing great, fighting this thing, chin up, be positive etc, etc, They look at me and see how tired, puffy and awful I look and it scares them. I understand that, It scares me sometimes too. I wonder am I ever going to get the old me back, because I don't know who she is.