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Long road

Posted by pennyb on 23 Apr 2012, 04:23PM

Mammogram, ultra sound, biopsy, somehow knowing that it wont be okay. Waiting waiting, that dreaded call from the GP. Sorry Penny it's not good news. Again waiting to see the surgeon. He makes you feel hopeful it might not be so bad, another biopsy, waiting, sorry Penny it looks like it has spread to your nodes, you will need chemotherapy. Okay surgery booked, turn up to hospital scared stiff but trying to be strong don't want to upset your family who look at you with such sadness, especially my beautiful son who is so petrified sometimes he can't even look at me.

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3 radiation sessions to go!

Posted by pennyb on 19 Apr 2012, 05:29PM

Hello everyone,
I had number 27 radiation today, my neck is very burnt, blistered and yukky, I am changing the glad wrap dressing on it 5 times a day, which is very painful.
I am very tired and sore, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
Hope every one is doing well.
Much love Penny

I hate the mirror

Posted by pennyb on 29 Mar 2012, 02:55PM

Some days I find it so hard looking in the mirror. I just can't stand the way I look. My hair has started to come back, I don't bother with scarves or wigs anymore, too hot with my flushes and just plain uncomfortable. I'm fat bald and ugly! I never thought I was very attractive before bc now i would love to have the old me back. I feel like bc has aged me,

Radiation

Posted by pennyb on 15 Mar 2012, 08:52AM

It's day 3 of 30 radiation, and so far it's easy. Well compared to chemo it is. The hardest part is trying to find a car park at the hospital.
I have started back working in the mornings, before I go off to my radiation sessions in the afternoon. It's nice to feel a little normal.
My hair has started to grow back so I have thrown away the scarves and wigs. Too hot and with the hot flushes it's just too uncomfortable. People stare at the scarf so going bald is no different. I never thought I would say that!

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Roller Coaster

Posted by pennyb on 22 Feb 2012, 02:34PM

Tomorrow is my last Chemo! It's been a hard tough slog, lots of tears, a few laughs, Surgery,Doctors, Hospitals, Baldness, sickness, PICC lines, steriods, Bone Pain, infections, Can't Eat, Eat too much, blowing up like a puffer fish, everything tasting like it came out of the back end of a dog. (stole that line from one of our pink ladies)Lost a couple of friends, but found out how lucky I am with others. Still on this cancer roller coaster, but doing okay, so far, Still smiling.