One year on - a year ago I started chemotherapy. I don't want to ever have to go back to chemo. My body feels so much older, its early days I know. But what happens now...one day at a time.
Some days those around me seem to act as if everything has gone back to the way it was before. It hasn't for me, maybe for them, but not for me.
I forgot about my ailments, aches and pains while I was at my 9 year old daughters bedside for 10 days.
She had not been well for some time, a wrong diagnosis because she did not have the classic symptoms and doctors not listening to me to check her chest meant that she got the attention she needed later rather than sooner.
I got the all clear, so now I begin radiotherapy. Just when it starts to heat up as if I need any more heat.
I have a nice fluffy head of white wavy hair. A completely new look, not exactly one I would have picked. Also my leg hair is growing - why now when summer is here.
I have been struggling with hot flushes which started midway through my chemo. but became much worse towards the end. Now that I also have had my ovaries removed my body is a little freaked out - oh heck I can say a lot freaked out after what I have been through this year.
I escaped !! Couldn't stand another day/night in hospital, buzzers going off. Being woken to take meds or get my temp/blood pressure checked. So I came home with my drain, in my gorgeous handbag (which has to go with me everywhere for the next few days. Not to mentionthe pleasure of taking off those pressure stockings ugg).
Hopefully this biopsy will come back clear and this will be the last surgery. My arm is feeling numb - but seems that is normal as some nerves get cut in the process but they will heal and all will be well.