Went back to work this week which I had been dreading for a long time. To my surprise it wasn't all that bad but I was exhausted at the end of both days. I must say now that it has been good for me to get back to some normality in my life now that my treatment has finished. Unfortunatley I am still scard sh**less that my cancer is going to come back I hope this gets better over time as sometimes I just feel like breaking down into tears.
Hope you are all well.
After 7 and a half months of being cut open, poked, proded, pricked, scanned, infused and zapped, feeling like crap, tired, hair loss, weight gain, sore and red, taking this and that, it is finally over. Don't know whether to laugh or cry, might do both. One thing is certain going to have a drink tonight.
My treatment is finished!!!!
Was very disappointed when I got my results back from my genetic testing. Luckily I dont have the Braca 1 or Braca 2 gene mutation but I have a variant in a gene and that could not give me a conclusive answer whether this may cause problems in the future. I think I may consider having a bi-lateral masectomy in a couple of years when the risk of secondary cancer is greatly reduced. This result has left me feeling rather distressed and caused uneccessary anxiety. Least I can start my radiation on Monday.
Celebrating my 38th birthday today. Going through a lot of mixed emotions. Happy to be getting another year older when I used to dread it. How things have changed. This time last year didn't have a worry in the world and was enjoying life with my new baby, this year my life has been turned upside down. I am now really appreciating and celebrating every birthday I have as at the back of my mind I wonder how many more there will be. Even though it has been a crazy year, I look forward to what the future will bring and my life may have changed but from now on it can only get better.