I often wonder as each month goes by, if I will remember to hop on here and say what is going on, because the further away from treatment, the more you want to forget and move on. However, I am still happy to be of help to those who want to read from one of the "Survivors". The two greatest things for me were loss of my long hair, and instant Menopause. The underarm and preventing lymphoedema - and regaining my memory are other subjects. Those are the ongoing things. How it has affected me, the stages, of returning into a work environment, when my job was given away to someone else, etc etc. "What I think" V/S "What I say" and how to not take what people say personally are really good tools. (hum “Cos I’m Happy! “Song to self) the way various people behave to us throughout, and how no one ever knows how you feel, because, everyone feels differently any way. So - yes, we are all different. I also have had lots of time to think, over that year, as I had to take the year off, and thank goodness we had a little income insurance, via my Superannuation that got us through. Lucky the relations donated some money our way too. The financial, well that’s another subject, the Husband during that time, depends on your type of partner, and for those who don’t have local physical support, I get that too. My family is in S.A.
During my year, I was lucky to have timed a big 2 day conference about breast cancer, and this lot, asked me to get up and speak in front of 200 peo"ship", and wasn’t nervous at all, because the BCNA had asked for my view of the on line support, so it wasn’t a tricky subject. This kept me sane, when I didn’t have the luxury of friends here to help.
I still think I have long hair in my dreams, and yet I don’t. I make jokes about having a party when my fringe reaches my eyebrows, and what’s funny about it is, no-one knows how much it means to me as a lifelong fringe wearer. (Smiling).
I am well aware of what I need to be grateful of, as I am still here, still have both breasts, and what those doctors did, well, it WORKED! Fingers crossed for a long future hey! Note to self: keep practising relaxion techniques, and yoga stretches. Walk for a half hour each day.
Until next time, hang in there! Love Bel